ABOUT ME
♥a girl who just graduated from secondary school
♥a shopaholic~
♥reject in setting up any of the relationships
♥hate of ppl talking about my gossip
♥HUGE FANS of EXO,SUJU,SHINee,TVXQ,AILEE,FT Island and JJ LIN
♥"music is a part of my soul"

Interests
♫playing piano
♫blogging
♫EAT.ENJOY LIFE.LOVE
♫ *KPOP* =)

Favorite Movies+Dramas
♥Twilight series
♥Harry Potter series
♥Vampire dairies series
♥TTBY

IdOL~♥
♥SHINee> MINHO
♥SUJU> *ALL* =)
♥JYJ> Jae-Joong김재중
♥EXO> *ALL* XD
♥JJ LIN

MY Wishlists~
#SPM straight A
#study at KL [so that i can always go to shopping]
#go to overseas especially SEOUL,KOREA!!!!
#with my Lovely Friends forever together
#can go to EXO and SUJU's concert
#learn KOREAN
#stay forever with my daddy,mommy and brother :)

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Talking about 11/04, i start to reflash  the moment when we were in primary. That time u knew i like u,but some "tragedy" falls on me.U ignore me,boi code me,until i lived in suffer life everyday.until 2 years then only u talked to me.To me that 2 years is suffer because I can't even talk to u,That's the BIG Problem for me.Since u knew i like u,u ignore everything about me.Tears keep dropping,blood keep bleeding...so much of suffer that I can't describe at all.now I'm afraid the same thing happen to me again.I'm afraid we can't be friends anymore.People keep asking me: why u still want to like him? u know that he loves somebody." Actually it's hurt for hearing that,i know he might love somebody,but i can't control.I just keep waiting and waiting....Already almost 8 years I keep waiting.I can't deny this, coz u are everything to me.U are a person which a can completely share my problems with...Every time when I'm sad,i will think of u firstly...people keep saying i wouldn't have chance to have a relationship with you.Yup,maybe this is the true.But I'm still stubborn,hard-headed.A few days ago, when we were having add math tuition,because a guy saying we both's gossip,u suddenly change your place and sit another row.I was shocked,and I was very upset and angry why must u change your place....then I changed my place also.the whole tuition lesson i was not paying attention.Some questions keep occur in my head.Lastly,I'd decided not to talk to you anymore.on the second day in school, when in the chemistry lab,i tried not to talk to u.I also trying not to having contact with you.because i don't want you to be unhappy because of our gossip...I don't want our image to be destroyed and to be influence because of our gossip.Come On!!you are the head prefect!I don't want u to said by people.I felt very sorry to escape you those few days,but I don't have choice.I'm sorry, 1104.....

These few days,i keep hardworking to compose "學不會",because i know u like JJ's songs very much.I really want to teach you "學不會" and "She Said".but i really don't have much free time,I need to practise my Piano pieces also,I apologize for always breaking promises to u.Always saying I want to teach you piano,but lastly i didn't teach.....I try my best to practise JJ's songs and teach you.Anything of Impossible can change it to Possible,If the thing is related to u...

No matter u dun like or what,I will waiting for u and i won't fall in love to anyone."NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU" back to top?

  Is it past for me?already 1 year,1 month and 8 days....Today my friends ask me:" Are you still missing him?"My answer is:" yes..." Later i silent for a while,I keep thinking and thinking...Am I going to be like this? I know it's quite serious for me...But what can I do?If I keep tears streaming everyday,what things can I change?NOTHING...Right? My friend advise me to put away the "useless things" from my house into a store and buy new furniture to put. So that other people can come. I really don't have any confidence already. Well,I would like to change myself. I would like to try...

I Lost Because of LOVE.
I Cry Because of LOVE.
even,
I'm Happy Because of LOVE.

"A mighty pain to love it is, and 'tis a pain that pain to miss; but of all the pains, the greatest pain is to love, but love in vain."
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Im in stressful now,no matter in academic or sosial i also failed!How failure am I!This few days I gonna to exert more pressure over my brain!Physics,Sejarah,Biology and Chemistry!owh man!!!!lolzzz...Im really speechless!just hope i can get at least a result that normal people can see one! back to top?

I HATE PEOPLE CHEATING!
I HATE PEOPLE WHO GOOD IN FRONT OF YOU,AND TALKING BAD THINGS BEHIND YOU!
YOU THOUGHT YOU ARE VERY HIGH CLASS ARH?!
LET ME TELL YOU,YOU ARE AS LOW CLASS AS SPOILT ORANGE!
DON'T SHOW YOUR SMELLY MONEY LAR!
YOU THOUGHT THE WHOLE WORLD ONLY YOU GOT MONEY?!
WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!I DAMN HATE YOU!!!! back to top?

  Today is already 1.1.2011!juz now Countdown with my parents at.....home larr.haha! Well,2011,a new year!of course a brand new of me lar!All the sad less at 2010 need to forget it and just look FORWARD!Don't ever ever look BACKWARDS!
 
  Secondly,I'm here to wish all my friends,relatives,teachers and all my 'yi mar gu jie' HAPPY NEW YEAR!and also may all Ur wish come true! back to top?

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  I felt down down down!I didn't expect I will get this kind of result.Everybody was expecting me to get 7 or 8As.but I'd made them disappointed!I'd ashamed 3 Biru.....What kind of people am I?I was just born to FAIL!I felt shamed being their Failure Friend!I was a Failure!a Failure!Why I get B for the subject that I like?I always get A for my BM.WHY?It's NOT FAIR!I'd hardworking for a long period to achieve my target!but finally why did I get?6As?THAT'S NOT MY TARGET!Im a Failure!I always made people disappointed about me!THIS IS WHAT I GET?!Im really UPSET!My hardworking for the PMR is USELESS already!I shouldn't study very Hard!It's not worth it!Now people outside was laughing at me!They criticised me!Don't you all think about my feelings?U thought Im hoping for this Result?U think Im happy for this?Don't you Think,every of your single words make me sad?Of course u think in this way!because u don't know how my feelings was!For the moment I get my result,did u know Im crying?I felt so Disappointed!so Shameful!U all always say Im TOP 10 student in 3 Biru!How can I get this result,right?Don't u think how many tons of Stressful that I need to carried?U all just like to use your mouth to simply criticize people at the back!I ask u la,if u are me then I criticise u and laugh at u,how did u feel?Sad?Upset,right?same to me also!

  [My dear gu jies and uncles,Im here to say sorry.because I'd made u all disappointed about me.I'd shamed Lam's family.I also want to thank my gu jie and my uncles,they'd encourage me,especially my 2nd gu jie and 3rd gu jie.U both had gave me a lot of advise,u helped me to rebuild my confidence.PMR already was a history,no need to look backwards,right?U advise me,"Feeling sad at present is normal,Human beings need to go through a lot of things.Somethings happy and sad.This is just a life cycle".Thank you very much!My lovely Cousins and Friends:Carol,Ai Kee, See Ming Shou,Ng Chiou Ker,Tee Xue Ting and Tan Yong Xin.Thanks for Cheering me up and still treat me as your good friend.]=) back to top?